Do we really want the “normal” pre-COVID-19?



Here’s a poem I wrote last night. It was one of these rough days. Day 16 of the quarantine & lockdown due to the COVID-19 pandemic here where I live in Québec, Canada and nobody knows when there will be an end to it. Here’s what I was feeling yesterday and still resonate deeply as truth in my bones today.

A(nother) poem on COVID-19

I don’t want things to go back to ”normal”

I don’t want to write this
And you won’t like reading it
The only reason I’m typing these words
Is to get relief from this pain in my jaw bones
And this feeling that my head is about to split open

We are all living a pandemic for the first time
It’s been about 16 days over here where I am
And I feel like it’s only the beginning
Everyone is in this together
Missing everything we thought we knew
Putting plans for the future on hold
And grieving all the things we took for granted
I feel so much heaviness in people’s hearts

The sun finally came out today
As I walked to the mountain & lake
I saw the people I crossed on the sidewalks
Moving away from me as if I had leprosy
Some smiled
Some have forgotten
For now anyway

Then I crossed path with a frail old man
We smiled at each other
Six feet apart
His eyes said EVERYTHING
His eyes were filled with love
That’s the most real and only
In-person human interaction I’ll have all day
I started crying
But nobody saw
Nobody knew
Everybody just kept walking their own way
It really is the only thing we can do
So I did, too
Wiping my eyes

And here’s the message I’ve been given today
By the lake, the mountain, the trees
It is so LOUD
Yet so contradictory to that of humans
That it feels like my head will split open
And my jaw bones are all cramped up
From trying to hold it in
So it’s time to release it
It’s time to share it
Sorry if it sounds like I’m SCREAMING
This is just how I’m feeling it
In my whole body right now

I just CAN’T stand it anymore
I hear people say
“I can’t wait for things to go back to normal”
I understand
But I just CAN’T stand it anymore
It doesn’t make sense
It just doesn’t make any fucking sense

I don’t want things to go back to “normal”
What is “normal”?
What we used to have before?
The “normal” we had before was NOT okay
And I don’t ever want it back
In my head, I’ve been hearing over and over
THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
THINGS CAN NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

Please STOP and think and feel
Do you really want things to go back to “normal”
The “normal” we had was NOT okay
It is NOT okay with me
Pesticides sprayed on the land is NOT okay
Chemicals spilling in all of our waters is NOT okay
Forests being cut down is NOT okay
Extensive monocultures depleting our soils are NOT okay
Local farmers around the world barely making a living is NOT okay
Child labor giving us cheap chocolate bars is NOT okay
Fast fashion and sweat shops are NOT okay
Families being separated and kept in cages is NOT okay
Pollution from cars & factories contaminating our air is NOT okay
Eight million tons of plastic dumped into our oceans every year is NOT okay
Nine million humans dying of hunger every year is NOT okay
It is NOT okay
The “normal” is NOT okay
It is NOT fucking okay
And I could go on and on
But perhaps the most important thing to remember right now
Is that the “normal” was NOT okay
For more reasons than I could even know
AND
Also
Because most humans’ hearts had been shutting down
And I could see that so many of you felt like your soul was dying
So slowly many didn’t even notice it
But it’s time to wake up
WAKE UP
Please STOP and think and feel
You may not like to hear this
You may not like to feel it
But deep inside
You know it’s the fucking truth
I’ve been feeling this in my whole body
And now I’m just hoping you can, too
The old “normal” was just NOT okay

I know things are hard now
I’m not saying they aren’t
You’re allowed to feel how you’re feeling
But I’m BEGGING you to just consider this
Do you really want things to go back the way they were?

Aglaée Jacob with an overlay of mountains and forests
Do we really want things to go back to the “normal” we had pre-COVID-19?

We have this golden opportunity
Right here and right now
You may not see it clearly yet
But this could be a defining moment
In all of human history
If you choose to
I’ve been part of the problem
And I’m also part of the solution
And so are you
What if instead of the “normal”
We created a NEW way of life
Together
For a better world

It really is the only way
Mother Earth will allow us
And our children
And the children of our children
To stay anyway

But right now
It is the choice we are asked to make
Right now
There’s no more waiting
The time is NOW

Do you see how powerful we are together?
When we use the power of focused intention
The world united to change the way we live our lives
Now fueled by the fear of this pandemic

But what if we created a new way of life
Kindled by our love for humanity and our planet?
Making better choices
One change at a time
One step at a time
For ourselves and the next generations
It’s time to WAKE up
And create a new way of life
Together
And start truly LIVING
In a way you’ve never ever knew you could feel alive

Now my headache is dissipating
And my jaws are finally relaxing
I know this is a temporary relief
I’ve been feeling this in my body for a while
I know I’ll feel this again
I know we’ll all need reminders
But may this be enough for today
And may you feel your hearts & souls
Kindled with hope
And may you never forget
That you are more powerful than you think you are
And that once we get through this pandemic
We can do ANYTHING
So let’s all UNITE forces
To do the RIGHT thing
For your heart & for your soul
And for our children
And the children of our children
And the children of the children of our children
And the children of the children of the children of our children
And the children of the children of the children of the children of our children
And the children of the children of the children of the children of the children of our children
And the children of the children of the children of the children of the children of the children of our children
Seven generations
Let’s start thinking, living, and loving
For 7 generations
As the wisdom of the Iroquois teaches us
It’s time
There is no more waiting
And the world needs YOU

~ Aglaée Jacob 🙏💗

p.s.1 here’s my free nourishing meditation for these intense times to help you stay grounded and keep opening your heart even with this uncertainty.

p.s.2 Upcoming circles
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